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Saturday, January 03, 2009
Confuse

I'm so confuse right now. I thought about a lot of things yesterday night.

Time passes so fast and now, I'm already Sec 3. In just 22 months or less, I'm going to take O level.

I don't know why but I felt very scare. I saw my timetable and asked myself, what if I couldn't cope with the subject? What if I couldn't do well? What if I fail? What if I couldn't do well enough to meet my own expectation?

I don't see any bright future ahead of me; all I see is a blur future, I don't know about my future. I'm so confuse now.

Most likely after O level, I'm going to poly, I seriously can't cope with JC stress. Maybe one day I'll go insane due to stress.

Time passes too fast, don't you think so? It seemed like yesterday was just the first day I stepped into Bowen and yet today, 2 years had passed.

I just don't feel like I'm a part of 3E2. I just wish that I'm still in 2E1. I just couldn't accept the fact that I'm in 3E2 now, not 2E1. Did you ever heard of a phrase that says 'the hard part is letting go'? It's just what I felt now.

I hate project; I hate presentation; I hat oral exam; I hate starting new; I hate meeting new people; I hate teacher calling me to answer question. I rather wish that I'm the one in the backstage and no one will notice me. I just want to hide in the dark.

I hate that time passes so fast, I hate that I'm going to poly soon; I hate that I don't know what's my ambition. What job am I going to get in the future? I don't know.

Maybe I'm thinking too far ahead but time is passing faster than my thinking. It's a fact that everyone plans for the future.

Ha, maybe after I graduate, I will just find a guy and get married and I won't have to worry so much.

I just wish that I could sleep and never wake up..


Maybe it's a bit emo but it's exactly how I felt.

A song lyric to express my feeling ~ Numb by Linkin Park:

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)

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