Geography: Quite okay. Learn how to read map.

A Math: Going through questions.

SS: Mrs Tan didn't come. So bored.

Physics: Do workbook then learn don't know what thingy.

Chemistry: Went lab & had experiment.


Forgive even if you can't forget.

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:45 pm

Today is so boring..

Physics: Just doing workbook & learn don't know what. Don't understand anyway.

A Math: Learn about graphs.. Boring..

Chinese: Wasted like 20 minutes cause needa wait for the auntie to open the door. Everytime lock the door one. Then mark workbook.

English: Did compre.

A Math: Learn about circles.

Then went to buy lunch & went home.

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 10:28 pm

Today is the 'last day' of school.

Got back report book. Ms Toh only told me that my work is consistent & combined humanities needa work harder ><

English: B3 (just one more mark to A2)
Higher Chinese: A2
A Math: A1
E Math: A1
Chemistry: A1
Physics:B3
Combined Humanities: B3
Total: 530/700

Was kinda disappointed with the subjects with B3.

Firstly, english, could have gotten a A2 if my oral is better.
Secondly, physics, if only I have more time to study..
Thirdly, combined humanities, grandfather passed away = no time study plus can't concentrate = fail ss

Saw Joanne's mark was 541 so most probably I'm second or third in class. Then saw Chong Tian's mark: 531, just one more mark more than me. Always that one mark..

Then left classroom. Saw that bitch outside her classroom so kinda ruin my mood. Don't want see her so just quickly walked away. Then went home.


Perhaps someday, the scar won't hurt anymore and I'll stop crying.. But, I don't know when is the someday..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:57 pm

Yesterday night started crying.. Really don't wanna see her.. Everytime I see her, my heart hurts, it reminds of many things.. Wanted to call him but he was sleeping so don't wanna disturb him..

Morning my mother called my kor to wake up but he kept on sleeping & I was woken up instead. Was very sleepy then mother kept on calling so very noisy then just go kick his bed but he still don't want wake up ._. Then check phone & someone sms me at 12+ & said wear class tee & I don't know who the person was ._. Wonder how s/he get my number..

Today have the math trail. Kinda fun but tiring also, walk here & there. & I love numerology. Got credit for the AMC.

After school ended, left school with him.. Don't feel like talking so just kept on shaking head.. Somehow feel that I'm very weird.. Everytime if my feeling is too much, I'll have problem breathing properly..

Labels: Feelings, School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:56 pm

Today woke at 6 so can have breakfast before going to school. Yesterday night sorta fell asleep without telling him >< Then morning saw the sms & missed calls but don't know he woke up anot so didn't sms him. Then went tie hair & my phone was in living room. Then after tie finish saw that he called me >< Went to school earlier than usual cause had nothing to do then started walking here & there then my mother said I very irritating & 'chase' me out of house ._. Then reached earlier so waited for him. Then started tickling each other while walking to school..

Went to Science Centre then cause have the 'body wonders' exhibition so have posters then I see le feel very uncomfortable then just kept on looking at the floor. Then kept on saying, the floor is so interesting. Then somehow kept on accidentally see those posters then started screaming ._.

Went to the omni theatre to watch something about bears. Then sat beside him, hehe. The show is like 45 minutes? Then went back to Science Centre, looked at the beautiful floor again. Then got the ticket then it has the disgusting picture >< This is why I hate biology. Disgusting. Then learn more about bears.

Then went back to school & went to eat.


Scars are meant to be there; to remind you of the past even when you don't want to..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 10:15 pm

Lazy to blog nowadays.. Maybe I'll just close blog.. Hmm..

Monday:
Physics did the chapter on light. Somehow found it very familiar 'cause last year learn before. So can understand almost everything.

Math was free period so played cards. One of the round was very lucky, I have spade 2, 8, 10, full house & don't know straight or flush so win pretty quickly.

Chinese was doing correction & getting back worksheets & stuffs. Then still have homework..

After lesson couldn't leave school yet so went to staff room to see can get back english paper 1 anot. Then got 44/60! So happy. 23 for the compo on 'hope' & 21 for speech. Speech anyhow write de lor ><

Tuesday:
Assembly is free period so played 'happy family' using poker cards. Then that Miss Ji kept on talking to me ._. Always talk to me de lor ><

PE played badminton, my aiming sux ><

Went back very late for ss. Then copied notes as usual.

Recess played cards again.

Math become geography then Ms Suan started scolding us. Then go through paper.

Then went to buy lunch then went home.


Didn't laugh so much for so long already.. Tickling you is fun, hehe =x

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:17 pm

600th post..

Thursday:
Ms Toh didn't come so had 6 free periods on that day. Had nothing to do while waiting for 8.30 to come then he asked if I wanna play so played a few rounds then went to the dental checkup with Jing Ning & Yu Mei. Went in & there was no one in there. Then waited outside for a while then she came. Cause our surnames are same, she asked if we are sisters, lol lor. Then when is my turn, had to clean my teeth ><

Then went back & saw You Hong carrying my bag. Then had to find Rachel, Safiah & Samantha. Can't find Rachel & Safiah at e3 classroom so lazy go find her. So went to english class to find Samantha. Mdm Lim didn't come so couldn't get back paper 1 >< Then the teacher told us to write essay but I only write one paragraph so didn't hand it in.

Chinese was just going through the paper.

During recess had nothing to do & so went to look at the noticeboard then saw some interesting math pattern. I like this the best.

1 x 1 = 1
11 x 11 = 121
111 x 111 = 12321
1111 x 1111 = 1234321
11111 x 11111 = 123454321
111111 x 111111 = 12345654321

Can you see the pattern?

After that was free period again. Then Mr Ng came in to give us homework.. Sian.. Then he asked if I wanna play then Cindy sort of become my advisor, sometimes ask her if I should use this or that. First few rounds he was the dealer then I kept winning, haha. Then I kept on using 5 cards. Last year it was Angelina, Cindy & Eunice who taught me how to play & I pick it up pretty quickly.. Then I was the dealer & I lost that round so Jun Han took my place then just stood there & watch them play. Then Vlasta suddenly dragged me to one side & said something that made me quite stunned. Although she said it was just a game, was very shocked & there was a blank look on my face while I tried to understand what she said..

After that went to eat & went to hougang mall to get my jeans. Then walked with him in the mall till 3+. Then went home. Then he told me his house there caught fire & it was just 1 storey above his house ><

Friday:
I hate friday, make me so sleepy.. Basically had nothing to do.. I rather go to school..

During night suddenly had mood swing then my emotions was so unstable. From angry to sad to crying to feeling nothing at all..

Labels: Feelings, School 2009

♥iloveyou 12:06 pm

Yesterday night went to lie on bed at 9+.. Then around 10 suddenly chest pain when breathing.. Then pain all the way.. Then he told me to hug bolster tightly.. Then no pain le. Then sometimes had a burning sensation in my throat.. Then near 1 then sleep?

Physics: Got 77.5/120, convert to 100% is 64.5 so round off get 65, B3. Was kinda expecting a B3. Explanation de anyhow write also at least get 1 mark.

English: Only get back paper 2. Got 33.5/50. Should be 34/50 cause I did write that point for the answer but the marker don't want give me that half mark ._.

Geography: 37.5/50 Kinda okay?

Chinese: Was kinda expecting to do badly but surprisingly, I did very well. Got 54.5/70 for paper 1. Got 40/50 for writing the narrative compo 生活需要微笑 but 1 word wrong so minus half mark. So happy, so long never get at least 40 for compo, nowadays always get 30+. Then got 71.5/110 for paper 2. The cloze passage I managed to get 9 out of 10 correct so get 18/20 for this section, improve alot, finally managed to pass this section with flying colours. Compre part did okay okay cause questions are hard so just anyhow write & can get 2 to 3 marks. Summary got 19/20. So shocking. My points are exactly the same as answer so get full 14 marks & get 5 for language I think. So get 126/180. Still needa add the sec 4 prelim marks & I got 74.3 for that. 126 + 74.3 = 200.3/280 Convert to 100% is 71.5, round off is 72.

Then went back to class & the HCL people are like the latest. Then Mrs Ng go through one of the questions. Then realised my answer for the indicator question is correct so plus one mark, so get 83/100 instead.

SS: 21/50. Failed >< Was kinda expecting it? Cause the day before exam went to hospital & very late came home. Then next day woke up at 3 to study but couldn't memorise anything at all cause feelings were mixed up from the news of my grandfather's death, insufficient sleep & stress. Was feeling kinda sad..

Then went eat & went home.

Results:
English:
Higher Chinese: 72/100
E Math: 90/100
A Math: 91/100
Chemistry: 83/100
Physics: 65/100
Geography: 37.5/50
Social Studies: 21/50

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:31 pm

Woke up feeling very tired cause not enough sleep. Then went to school as usual.

Had assembly. This friday no school; next wednesday & thursday have post-exam activities (I thought don't have); next friday is 'last' day of school; next next week have extended lesson. The watched a don't know what thing. Then went back class. Got back e math paper 1: 69/80 Lost 5 marks due to carelessness..

Then was PE. Watched them played badminton.

SS didn't get back papers. Then needa go do the quiz, thought I did it online already..

Got back e math paper 2 & a math. Got 94/100 for e math paper 2. At first was 93 then I was checking the paper then realised one of part was marked correct but didn't give me that one mark ._. So went to get that one mark. Total get 90/100 for e math, so happy ^^ A math got 91/100. See le very shock.

Chemistry got 29/40 for paper 1; 46/50 for paper 2 section a; 23/30 for paper 2 section b. Total is 82/100

After school mostly everyone left. So me & him went to hougang point to eat. Then Chih Chieh & Jia Xiang came after a while. Then went home.

Results:
English:
Higher Chinese:
E Math: 90/100
A Math: 91/100
Chemistry: 82/100
Physics:
Geography:
Social Studies:

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 3:49 pm

So long never post le.. A bit lazy to post ba.. Going to reach 600 post already..

Thursday:
A Math: Quite okay. Used the word okay instead of easy cause some questions not sure how to do. Took quite a long time to do some easy ones cause brain a bit not working well.

After exam everyone chiong home to chiong computer so only left me & him. Then was basically walking around. So nice, hehe.. Then bought lunch & went home.

Friday:
Woke up at 2 then couldn't sleep.. Around 3 sat on my bed then my kor came in to sleep. Then he saw me sitting on bed then was shocked. LOL. Then went to living room & sat on sofa. Sorta fell asleep then neck very pain.. Then 5+ woke up & went back bed to sleep.

Whole day was feeling very tired for no reason.. Must be cause I'm sick.. Kept on sleeping.. Like pig ><

Satursday:
Went to Sentosa with him & other boys. Reached hougang mall with him at 11. Only Ze Hao was there so waited for others. Then took MRT. Then they had lunch but I not hungry. He offererd to share with me but I a bit shy & also Moy Hong went to eat like half of the food then there was so little left for him..

Then reached there at about 2? Then don't want stay at beach so crossed the shaky bridge to go to a tower. Then spent the time ..... Played cards with him. Then loser has to do something.. But both of us enjoyed it, hehe.

Then went back to beach. Put legs into water but was scare will lose balance so kept hold onto him. Had fun. The funniest thing was Moy Hong's white shirt which, in the end, had black dots on it. Then arms were being sunburnt then a bit red red.

Then went back. We were like walking slower than them & Ze Hao like cannot stand us. Kept on walk behind us. Then went eat at hougang mall cause I very hungry ><

Sunday:
Nothing much.. During early morning dislocated my legs again. But this time worst, is both legs, normally one leg only. Left leg is from knee to ankle the bone like got twisted, always like that. Right leg is the bone at the feet got dislocated. So pain!! During night chatted with him for 1hour plus.. Time seemed to pass so fast..

Monday:
Went to hougang mall with mother. On bus got one auntie like want use her trolley crush my leg like that. Then kept move towards me & still open her trolley, waste space. As if the bus wasn't cramp enough. Then went eat. Saw people use handkerchief 'chop' table. First time see wor.. Normally is tissue but now singaporeans became more creative. Bought 2 shirts, 1 jeans, 1 belt, shoes & wallet. Had been so long since I bought new shirts. Perhaps one year? Then never bought jeans before cause I so skinny & no size for me. So only got one jeans which my aunt bought from china.

Then sorta talked about the past which made both of us cried.. I know you will see this: I'll forgive you =) I won't let there be a tiny crack in our relationship..

Labels: School 2009, Weekend

♥iloveyou 10:33 pm

Tuesday:
Physics paper 1: Very hard, mostly was guessing.

After that had a break but don't want study so chatted with Cindy. After a while saw Li Yan & Angelina so as usual kajiao Li Yan =x

E math paper 2: So easy, know how to do all so kinda confident will get 90 plus?

After that went to eat then go home. Then went to sleep cause tired. Woke up & started coughing.. I thought I recovered already..

Then took bus with kor to go grandmother's house cause needa go there eat for good luck. Then eat. Then it was my third aunt's husband's birthday so had a simple celebration which is just eating cake. Then watched tv & left at 8.30

At night felt horrible, kept on coughing. Cough until wanna vomit. Then throat very uncomfortable.

Wednesday:
Mother & kor left home at 9 cause today is the seventh day then needa pray or something.

Then time pass pretty quickly.. =(

Then my kor brought back food. The food was so cold, so disgusting.. Then don't want eat, left food on table & go sleep. Then father came back, see the food untouch but never scold me, still ask kor shared his food with me cause he go buy mac. My father like never scold us at all since my grandfather left.. So nice wor..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:34 pm

Satursday:
Woke up then my voice was very weird, going no voice le then mother also not feeling well so went to see doctor with her. Whole family sick ><

11+ left home.

Afternoon was nothing much. Then have some rituals thing. Then we are supposed to wear socks then my cousin wear till got a big hole cause she go pull the string. Then about 11+ then finish.

Sunday:
Roughly same thing. Then at night, Jing Ning's parents drive us home, so nice..

Monday:
Chemistry paper 1 was quite okay ba..

After that went to eat. Then he walked me home..

Then Jing Ning's parents drove me there. Reached at near 11? Then changed clothes & stayed at void deck. Then heard my grandfather's spirit came back this early morning, 3+, then went into my aunt's body & scold my father & asked him take care of family. Think he worried about the family & when he left, he can't talk so perhaps can't say his last words?

Lots of kneeling. Then had some ritual thing..

Then 2pm left for cremation.. Then my aunts cried.. When the coffin was pushed in to be cremated, my aunts start shouting & crying.. Made me cry also.. =(

Then went back for more rituals thing..


Finally could take a break, wore out, sick due to the funeral, lack of sleep & insufficient time to study..

Labels: Feelings, School 2009, Weekend

♥iloveyou 9:55 pm

Friday:
Studied till around 6 then feel very tired so went to sleep for 30 minutes. Wake up then feel not really that tired..

Physics paper 2: Kinda okay-okay? Know how to do most of the calculation but don't know how to do explaination parts so just anyhow write.

Geography: Quit okay bah.. Anyhow write lorms..

Feeling quite tired cause not enough sleep & I ate medicine.. Then had sorethroat & my voice is like very weird. Then go eat.. After that went back home to eat medicine then he accompany me go bus stop..

Reached at 2+ then just kept on folding the yuan bao.. Was so tired.. Then had dinner at 7. Then Jing Ning & her parents & brother came. Then my neighbour came & when they wanna leave, they offered to drive me home cause they saw me very tired..

These few days so tired..
1. Wednesday went hospital till 8+ reach home, not enough time study SS
2. In the end slept for 4 hours & woke up at 3 during thursday morning
3. Thursday morning went there till 10+ reach home, didn't study geography or physics at all
4. Only slept for two hours cause wanna study
5. Kor spread cough to me & made me cough till sorethroat
6. Only slept 6 hours for 2 days
7. Very tired..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 11:20 pm

Only had time to blog now.

Thurday morning woke at 3am, only slept for about 4 hours. Then my mother said my grandfather left at 1+..

Tried to memorise ss but couldn't.. Don't know what to feel.. So stress up.. So scare that will fail ss as I couldn't remember anything at all.

Went to school at 6 then met him as usual then we went class to study.. Still can't memorise. I only tried to memorise the nationaly identity and common space.

SS: 13 marks gone already.. Hai..

E Math paper 1: One word - easy! If I really want to chiong, can finish using about 1 hour only but scare a lot time left so just slowly do..

After that went to eat then he walked me to the bus stop but the bus is like so long de.. Then went to staircase there.. Then after that bus came..

Reached there & it was 3 already. Tio scolded cause was late. Then needa change into the clothes. White t-shirt & dark blue pants.. Then only me & kor wear that cause we are the only 内孙 then my cousins are all 外孙 so is like we very important. But my kor more important cause he male ba.. Then my aunt said we can't go upstairs often, must stay at the void deck.. Then folded the paper thing (don't know called what) into a 元宝 shape. My couisin teach me once I knew how to do already then my mother & aunts still have to learn very long then know. Then just kept doing that cause they say needa make as many as possible.

Then around 7 went to eat. Then Jing Ning's parents came. Her mother quite nice to talk with. Saw a lot relative also but don't know who is who cause some never see before or see few times only.

Then around 8 went to burn the 'paper' then can only burn one at a time. Then me & kor burn till like 10+ then I said I wanna go home to study.. Didn't study at all.. Then accidentally burn my finger >< Then took taxi home but waited a long time cause no taxi. Then walked till somewhere further up. Then went home.. Went to bath & saw croakcoach!! Unlucky.. Then started coughing so ate medicine (kor's one).. Then studied Physics till 1+ then tired so went rest for less than 2 hours.

Totally tired!

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 3:33 am

Morning was woken up a few times by my kor he kept on coughing.

English paper 1: Speech came out but don't really know the format >< Then write question 5 which is hope.

English paper 2: Just anyhow do.

After exam saw 2 miss calls, thought something happened to my grandfather.. In the end is my mother bring kor to see doctor then tell me get key from neighbour. Then went to eat. Eat chicken porridge. Then he walked me home..

Aunt called & said my grandfather's condition isn't good so 3+ went with parents to go see him.. Reached there at 4+.. All my aunts & uncles were there already & some were crying.. He had to breathe using the oxygen mask.. Then first time see my father cried.. Then my aunts said he was looking for people.. They tried asking him but he couldn't talk cause no energy.. So asked him questions then if the answer is yes, move his leg. Then he wanna see all the grandchildren. Then called my kor & cousins to come down.. Then everyone went to see him.. Then 6+ was forced to go eat when not really hungry.. Then went up & waited outside the ward, nothing to do anyway. Then waited till 8 then my mother told my kor to bring me home first cause I needa study for exam..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:26 pm

Monday:
Was woken up at 3+ cause my kor kept on coughing. Then he woke me at 4+ then saw my kor sleeping in living room cause he don't want disturb me, so nice wor. Then took chemistry book & sat on bed to study. The bed was so tempting.. Then study & study.. As usual, 7+ leave school..

Chemistry paper is easier than expected..

Chinese class was basically free period so played bingo with Li Yan.

English did nothing much. Only needa wrote a 150 words short essay about holiday after exam. Then discussed going ECP after exam.

Math got back test. Got 17/25 for emath. Second question I saw the wrong angle so 8 marks gone >< Careless.. Got full marks for amath. Finally know how to do binomial.

Then he walked me home. Halfway, it started to rain..

Tuesday:
Woke up & it was raining.. Left home when it's not raining but strong wind blow & those rainwater that the leaves accumulated started flowing down ><

Paper 1: One word - hard!! After the exam ended, I turned behind & both me & Yu Mei said that it was hard at the exact same time. Choose informal & narrative but the narrative was hard. Have to write a narrative based on the title '生活需要微笑' So hard!! Was crapping throughout. Do until headache ><

Paper 2: Even harder!! Compre questions were so difficult. Kinda like lit? Have to write what's the meaning of the sentence. Why the writer write that. What's the main content? Use what method to write that paragraph & why? HARD! Do till wanna faint, feel a bit giddy.

Then he waited for me at the corridor then went to hougang point to eat. The queue was long. Then everyone was waiting for the fries. So lol lor. Then Yong Kiat was standing beside me waiting for fries then suddenly ask if we went to the same tuition during p1. It was like so long ago. Eight years already, can't really remember. Then eat. After that he walked me home.. Then he *** me but it was so brief.. But kinda nice.. =)

Switch on com then kor said internet got problem, don't know what PPP thing. Then nothing to do. Asked my mother if she knew Yong Kiat then she still remember. Lol lor. So long ago de thing so remember; recent thing can't remember.

In the end don't know why fall asleep..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:02 pm

Today woke up like usual then was feeling quite tired. Walked to school with him like usual.

Went to the usual place then they were talking about don't know what so asked Cindy what they talking about. I only move my lips & not really talk yet Cindy said she heard my voice?! At first though she could read lips or what..

Got back the summaries. Got 14/20 for the one that we were supposed to do for CA2 but Mr Ng didn't include it in. Got 10/20 for another one. Then did correction. Mark the chengyu test then got Samantha's one. She went to write date at the mark there ._.

English did compre but was mostly copying the correct answer.

SS was basically slacking.

Physics copied answer again.

At the corridor there saw Huan Yi & Eunice so went to chat with them as they finding You Hong. Then Huan Yi asked me I waiting for who. So I said them. Then she asked who is the them so I said human. Kinda crapping. Then she said I was waiting for him then said she knew who the person was so Eunice started asking. Was feeling kinda >< so just don't care them & walked away >< Then went to foyer. He want to take back test so went to find Ms Toh. But can't take back. Left school. He went back take books so walked to hougang point with You Hong & Zheng Kang. Then waited for him & bought food & went take bus. Reached there & started eating but saw ants!! Then he killed the ants >< Hate ants >< Don't feel like studying there so feel like going home.. In the end went to AMK library with him. The journey was tiring.. Did chemistry for about one hour? Then went home. Was walking at my block's void deck then saw my neighbour & he was holding my hand. Was kinda shocked so just quickly shake off his hand >< Sorry ><

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 8:13 pm

Didn't sleep well yesterday night. Sleep at 11+, woke at 1+ to switch off charger, was woken up at 3+ by kor cause he came in to sleep, woke up at 5+ to complete chinese homework. So woke up every two hours. Was so tired. Then prepared for school & left home. I was earlier than him so waited for him.

Got back e math test.. 29/40 only, kinda disappointed with myself. When she go through the questions, I realised that I actually know how to do >< Was feeling very tired & struggled to stay awake.

Did compre & asked Angelina on how do lorms.

Chinese did chengyu test as usual then Mr Ng made us write down the formats for the four types of letter writing.

Math did revision worksheet. Kinda easy I guess? During CE watched the video & some parts are quite funny.

During lunch stayed in class to study geography. Didn't eat breakfast & lunch so was feeling very hungry.

Went to humanities room then have the test. Couldn't finish. I doubt anyone could finish. Then go through worksheet. Felt my phone vibrating when lesson gonna end. Had a bad feeling about it.. Called back & my mother said my aunt called her & said my grandfather's condition is very bad.. So my parents & kor going to go visit him.. Asked if I got bring keys.. Then felt very worried & guilty.. Ever since he got sick during the H1N1 period, I have never go & visit him.. What if he just left.. I would feel very guilty for the rest of my life..

Walked out of school with Cindy, feel like crying but managed to hold back the tears. Very soon, he caught up with me.. Then I just cried.. Still remembered that I asked him yesterday that what would he do if I cried in front of him.. He put his arm around my shoulder.. Kinda like it but he took it back very quickly.. Was almost crying throughout the walk.. Don't feel like going back yet cause I'll feel so lonely.. So said I wanna eat cause I was really very hungry.. So walked to hougang point. The person heard wrongly & thought I want sundae & scold me.. Feel like crying again.. It wasn't my fault.. Then walked home.. Went home & there was no one.. Sat on the sofa & stared at space.. Really don't know what to do.. Tears just kept on flowing down.. Felt tired & went to rest for a while.. Woke up as the phone ring & my shirt was wet..

Thanks you for being there for me.. =)

Labels: Feelings, School 2009

♥iloveyou 9:26 pm

Today woke up as usual. Tied finish hair faster than usual so had about 20 minutes left before I left home. Walk to school with him like usual.

Physics was just copying answers.

English did letter writing.

Went to humanities room then Ms Suan haven't come yet. Talked to her but she was like very buay song. So was wondering whether I did anything wrong.. But I didn't.. So nevermind, just gonna keep my mouth shut. Best is don't talk at all. Has lorms test tomorrow.. Still don't know how do..

Chemistry was so funny, keep on laughing.

Math did test..

Then he walked me home.. Next time gonna walk slower..

Labels: School 2009

♥iloveyou 4:45 pm

This is gonna be a long post..

Walked to school with him but don't really feel like talking.. Still feel guilty about yesterday.. So it was a silent walk.. Reached school then walked to usual place.. Heard them talking about something that didn't involve me at all.. Hai.. it's always like this.. Always being left out..

Assembly was about drugs.. Some pictures are so disgusting.. Don't dare to look..

PE was horrible. Was hit by the ball from the other court. First time it wasn't that pain. In less than a minute, the ball hit me again.. But this time, it hit me so painful & my spec even fall onto the ground.. Then feel abit giddy.. After that was feeling both hot & cold even though I was under the hot sun. My hands were icy cold & my face felt so hot. Went to sit down & talked a while with him.. After a while he went to tell Mr Loo so Cindy accompany me go sick room rest awhile..

Didn't do SS homework so sat on floor.. First time wor..

Math was boring.. Just more & more worksheet..

Go through worksheet..

Wanted to go out de.. But she don't want.. Hai.. Then went PE room find Mr Lim to buy the physics TYS. Don't know why it's always like this.. They don't like it when I pangseh them.. But when they pangseh me, I couldn't say anything at all.. All I could do is to keep my mouth shut & do nothing about it.. It's always like this.. Maybe this is how my life should be.. I remembered yesterday, she asked Angelina only whether she has the chemistry worksheet on salt preparation 'cause she wanna copy the answer.. Angelina couldn't find & I don't know why I went to find mine & lend her despite how she treated me & she didn't even ask me.. I must be crazy.. Feel like the second again.. Perhaps in everything I do.. I could only be the second.. People always don't remember me.. Maybe it won't even make a difference whether I'm in this world or not.. Just something invisible & not needed..

Math did worksheet again..

Went to 644 to buy prepaid card to top up phone then walked back to school.. Went to canteen to wait for him.. Nothing much to do so just study chemistry. Then Rui Ting came at 4+ then told me the conversation was hard. Then she left. After awhile Wei Ling came then she kept say 'si le si le'. Then chatted abit & saw Elizabeth so knew it was his turn le so went to wait for him.. Then walked home.. At my house void deck he said something about movies & that made me remembered many things.. Felt abit sad.. Then he stood in front of me & put his hand on my shoulder.. Had this feeling that he want to hug me.. But saw one woman kept looking at us & I got scare.. =(

I dare say.. I only went to cinemas to watch movie for pathetic three times only. The first time was with family, about 10 years ago.. The second time was last year.. When the china people came for exchange programme & all last year sec 2 hcl people can go watch red cliff part 1 with them.. Third time was this year.. Last year, I suggested a class movie outing.. When I asked them whether they want go or not.. All give me excuses.. In the end, I didn't go at all even though I wanna watch it.. Hai.. This year, beginning of the year, she went to watch red cliff part 2 without asking me.. I remembered last year we already agreed to go watch it together when there is part 2 but she forgot about it.. Hai.. I kept quiet.. I never said anything.. During july she suddenly ignore me.. Felt so alone.. But it wasn't so bad at the start cause he was there.. But changing seats & sitting with that sleeping guy made things worst.. Suddenly felt so isolated from everyone.. Break down quite a few times..

One day.. tears will flow again..

Labels: Feelings, School 2009

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